why???

why is it always so tough to tell what i feel

why can't i open up knowing that there is no one that can come and harm me

why can't i be demanding

why can't i shout aloud and ask for what i want

why can't i seclude my self when i want to

why can't i be resilient

why can't i understand

why can't i be rude

why can't i be selfish

why can't i say no

there is so much to ask, and so much to know

why don't people bother to know what is the reason

reason for being so sedate

reason for staying quiet

reason for not demanding needs

reason for being silent

there are many things i don't understand in life, and i don't take pride in this "not-knowing"

it makes me think, how people can behave in ways that they normally would never want to.

they don't bother thinking for a second, they don't bother caring.

i dont know if i am making sense.

i dont know if i can ever.