Every time i sit down to write a new post

i give a thought about it, but as soon as i begin writing it all vanishes, it makes me feel sick.

there have been too many why's in my posts, still i cant get enough of them.

why cant i write out my heart

write out everything that i have ever felt

every cry

every laugh

every drive on a lonely road

every feeling of being wanted

every wish that took my sleep

every person that i've ever met

every fondness that i've ever felt

every touch that gave me chills

every hour that took days to complete

every hand that i could not hold

every breath that wasn't complete

every time that i couldn't help

every person that made me cry

every person that didn't even try

wish i could do all of these

wish...